I graduated two and a half weeks ago. Throughout those two and a half weeks it has become abundantly clear to me that I cannot just sit around and be pleased with myself for being a college graduate. But what can I do as a recently graduated, newly unemployed individual? I haven’t gotten into any sort of a regular routine just yet, but two and a half weeks is a lot of time to think about your ambitions, so my current list for these next few months is fairly extensive. I want to learn CSS, expand my Spanish vocabulary, get back into learning Mandarin, start to learn Turkish, read a lot, and write.
The last time I studied any language was sophomore year, so maybe throwing myself into three languages simultaneously is a bit of a stretch, but the most daunting thing on that list right now is the last one. I’ve always wanted to write, and I’ve always enjoyed it, but whenever I’ve decided that it’s something that I need to do outside of school, the idea that clicking publish means that somehow I think my imperfect formulations of imperfect thoughts are worth anyone taking the time to read them has been a huge block to overcome. I don’t know what I want to write about this summer, but I am going to write. And while I’m at it I’m going to prove that my four years of high school Chinese didn’t just get thrown out the window when I started college, and that I can learn things outside of a classroom too. Maybe even better than I could motivate myself to while I was inside one.
Summer reading note: I finished Zadie Smith’s ‘NW’ tonight and started ‘News for all the People’ by Juan Gonzalez and Joseph Torres.